Too tight
people probably think im purging after every meal or something, because I have thrown up twice this week. Tomorrow I will be getting a unfill and I cannot wait. This is totally not what I was aiming for. I am PRAYING my band has not slipped. PRAYING.
Remember how it first felt when you started losing weight? When the number on the scale got smaller and smaller, when your clothes got bigger and bigger, when your confidence level went higher and higher. Don’t let that feeling get taken away from you. Remember how good that felt? Get that back. Don’t lose yourself to discouragement and laziness. Come on, girl. You can do this.
(via cindyfword)
Updates
Hello Everyone!
I have updates…some good, some bad, some awesome!!
1. I just got approved to study abroad in Austria!!! for a month. I am OVER THE MOON excited!!
2. I have no idea what my actual weight is, but I know I have to be somewhere close to 195. Im definitely getting a saggy booty in like every pair of jeans I own, so I went shopping this weekend.
3. Down from a size 18 to in between a 14 and a 12. What is life right now???!!!
4. In other news, Juanita (my band) has been giving me MAJOR problems.
- I think my fill is wayy too tight. I am 5.8 cc’s now, so as a result, I get stuck of everything!! Im talking like on tuna salad and all of that.
- I have this burning sensation in the bottom of my stomach and my stomach makes all these weird gurgling noises all the time.
- I can’t eat a thing, so I will go without eating until the end of the day which I know is horrible, I attribute this to my weight loss also.
- I’ve been on liquid days longer than I have wanted to be, and that pisses me off, because one should enjoy eating and not avoid it.
- Hopefully, in march, I will be able to go home and get an adjustment and definitely get some fluid taken out.
Ill update you guys with a current picture. Get ready to be shocked.
Hello to all my new followers!!
Welcome to my journey! :)
Enjoy your stay, and don’t be afraid to show some love <3
before: February 2012 after: November 2012
Still crazy to me, and I legit feel like I’ve only lost 10 pounds. Its amazing how much weight loss has affected me. I used to be entirely consumed with everything I ate, feeling as if one thing would make me gain 5 pounds.
Now I do not feel as if I have to obsess over my weight anymore, mainly because I know what I need to eat. It is a definitely a lifestyle change, but I LOVE it. Getting Juanita (my band’s name) has been the best decision I have ever made.
First Thanksgiving with my WLS!!
and I feel great!
had an adjustment 2 days ago, and I have all soft foods to eat.
Let’s Go!
oh btw my band is named Juanita!
Highest weight: 242
Surgery Date: May 17, 2012
UGW: 170
Total Pounds Lost: 55
